alcohol

under the influence of alcohol, she said this to me...
"make japan trip happen, u know wat u should do, u know wat to do."

again, under the influence of alcohol, she said this to me...
"try harder, try harder casey."

without the influence of alcohol, she said this to me...
"i broke up with u not because of another person, this person is not enough to cause the break up."

i've been trying very hard to come to terms with a lot of things that happened lately. i dont know how to move on without getting over it. i dont know how to get over it without coming to terms with images that are stuck in my mind and heart. the last thing i ever wanna do is, to shut her out of my life.

choices, yes we have choices.
i tried this choice, didnt work. i tried the other choice, didnt work.
now i'm left with a choice i dont want to choose, but seems like it might work this time? i dont know......