a day of pain

physically, very painful....but good, cuz it's my distraction.
i soooo love this song, Tears And Rain by James Blunt

How I wish I could surrender my soul;
Shed the clothes that become my skin;
See the liar that burns within my needing.
How I wish I'd chosen darkness from cold.
How I wish I had screamed out loud,
Instead I've found no meaning.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

How I wish I could walk through the doors of my mind;
Hold memory close at hand,
Help me understand the years.
How I wish I could choose between Heaven and Hell.
How I wish I would save my soul.
I'm so cold from fear.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
I've heard what they say, but I'm not here for trouble.
Far, far away; find comfort in pain.
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble.
It's more than just words: it's just tears and rain.

can one find comfort in pain?
yes....i found, have u??

strangely............................recently,
i keep telling myself to be patient towards all that is unsolved in my heart and try to love the questions themselves. i didnt try to seek the answers because i know i would not be able to live them. it's not easy but slowly i learn and i live....
i live everything.....so for the moment, for this moment, live the questions.

yes, today is a day of pain....for me......
at a place of pain, blogging the feeling of pain, in the comfort of pain.
how sweet, ha!!