write or shoot?

dont feel like either of them lately. oh well............
ok, anything just to get the pix of the day??

is this a choice?

........................letting go and getting over.......................
guess not much of a choice here, but rather just part and parcel of life. or maybe even an equation for walking through the pain of failed relationships? hmmm, does this make sense? definitely to me. letting go and getting over are 2 separate issues, and the only thing they have in common, is pain. there's no steps to follow, no ways to escape, u just have to walk right through it. no fixed time frame for letting go and getting over. seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years or even a lifetime, are all possible. to eventually be able to think of the person without intense pain, is how i am feeling now. somehow i think it's more painful to let go than to get over, but it's more difficult to get over than to let go. hmmm, kinda confusing here, but i'm not confused.

awesome album!!

yes...i so love their songs.
here's another one....Let It Go by Blue October.

Where do u go
When the day is long
And where does your heart beat
And who is wrong

Why do i feel this way
Why do i kneel
How could i let it go
Why do i feel
Why do i feel
Why

Follow me home
Through the, the maze and on
I'll show u the road
That i led u the wrong way on

Why did i go that way
Why do i still
How could i let her go
Why do i feel

Oh why did i go that way
Why do i still
How could i let her go
Why do i feel
Why do i feel
Why

Why
Why did i go that way
Why do i need
How could i let her go
Why do i feel

Oh why did i go that way
How could i still
Oh how could i
How could i
How could i

How could i
How could i.

i have to say that every single songs on the album are just simply awesome! awesome in a freaking depressing way...ha! not that i'm depressed or what, but it's just somehow amazing how songs can make a person feel so much. i have so many songs. some i wouldnt want to listen to anymore, some i would play it again and again.

p.s....for nyu, your comments still stay on my blog, so no apology, okie!

word verification

hate it when some idiots left some stupid comments on my blog!! well, they are idiots, so explains their stupid comments and the only place they belong is the trash bin....hahahhaahaaa!! i added the word verification thingy, hope it'll help.

blogging now is not the same anymore. strange, but that's how i'm feeling past few days. i dont feel like writing, or rather typing....so i tried pen and paper, worst! yes, finally understand the meaning of 'everything happens for a reason.' easy to say but to truly understand the meaning of it, i can say i do now. 不知从何说起，可能就是这样吧，就这么简单。

小一报名抽签

sigh....it's sad when u dont get what u want. poor parents.


。。。。。。。。。。。。。想通了。。。。。。。。。。。。。
hmmm, it definitely didnt happen overnight. quite awhile, i took. i dont want to waste another 3 years, i dont want to lose another friend, so i guess 我想通了。finally, i let it go....i have a choice this time, and i made a right one, a good one. it felt great somehow, cant explain, but just hmmmm, it feels kinda like i gain something even better after everything? guess that's life, right? life treats me well cuz i learnt my lesson well. this is definitely a better answer than the one i gave u just now. no shit!! i just google photofreek and arrrggghhh, so freaky!!

tonight's happening, all thanks to sista! i meant it in a grateful way. thanks sista, from the bottom of my heart.

singapore....

happppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppy birthday!!!!!!!!!!

wishes from the top.................of the world!

National Stadium

..........................after 33 years............................
.......................time to go.............................

2 ex-gfs

hmmm, strange....i felt like i had spent a day with my 2 ex-gfs yesterday. weird and freaky, i felt. not that i was with them, in fact i was with my bro's gf. here goes...bro's gf stayed at my place sunday night, not unusual. she's in the middle of shifting, and due to bad timing, will be homeless for the next 3 days. to make things worst, she's now down with fever cuz of her tonsilitis. one of my ex-gfs had tonsilitis too. i made her go for operation and bought her all the 3 Powerpuff Girls, and her favourite white lilies. those were the days...anything to please a little young gf of mine. yes, i bumped into her that night. not a little girl anymore, she's a lady now, studying music in UK. i'm happy for her, cuz she's finally doing what she likes. ohh....back to today. i suggested operation to my bro's gf, but she said it's useless. some of her relatives who had tonsilitis, went for operation, but after awhile it came back. hmmm, for that i have no answer. bro actually asked if my friend's tonsilitis came back? i didnt know how to answer him. should i say my ex-gf or just friend? in the end i told him i lost touch with this friend of mine who had tonsilitis, so dont know if hers came back or not. guess this is best answer i can give!
after picking bro's gf from training center and dropping off him at airport, we headed to gf's old place to pack some stuffs cuz landlord chasing after the place. bro flying off, gf is sick and still have to clean up old place...bro really owe me big time! "wei, help me hor"....he better be for real this time! deep down, i really hope bro is serious this time. i want them to work, so no matter what favour he asks from me, i'll sure do my best. the moment i stepped into the house, geeeezz...! packing, throwing, sweeping, cleaning...dust everywhere! it felt like those days with her. begining till end, together to apart. memories flow, thoughts wonder...i let them, it's ok.

i'm having running nose and sorethroat now, all thanks to bro.

非常 SuperBand!!

they are the 迷路兵。。。but they are definitely not lost!
poor boys...ended late last night and started early this morning with a photo shoot. young and full of energy...thus, i got this shot! kinda make me feel old....hmmmmm.....

ok...i got the green paper....i hate this.

the request....

really hope i dont have to do this anymore. sista said nothing after hearing my request...just a several pat on my back and she nodded. she understood, i'm glad.

yep, i havent been around and i was back last night. cant really remember when was the last time i hit the dance floor. danced till the lights came on and music stopped....ha, then realised it was time to go home. phew...if not for dancing my heart out, think probably i cant drive myself home. hmmm, not sure if becuz i havent dance for a long long time or what, i was in fact impressed with myself that i can stand and danced to those songs the DJ played....hahahahahaaa!! guess nothing beats zouk and velvet, they are definitely the best. bumped into some friends and ex-gfs. i was so into dancing and dancing and still dancing, that i forgot to stop to talk a bit more. anyway, just hope that i'll see them again and this time i'll remember to ask for their numbers.

sista mentioned her name twice last night. i made that request....

kind words....

i heard endless times, from friends and from stranger....thank you and i appreciate it very much, cuz these words assured me that i'm not alone.
Life must go on. yes, i know.
Everything happens for a reason. yes, i know too.
So don't go beating up yourself everyday, yeah? yeah, i'm working on it....pain is inevitable, misery is optional, ha!!
Change is the only constant in this world. yes, and it's all a question of time. of how your likes and dislikes change. of what your life demands out of you. isn't this scary? it scares me....change scares me.